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mostly awful gloomy things that happend to you this year
like I'd tried to commit suicide this year.
no really I did try to... commit suicide this year...
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I would'nt try to anymore. I tried as a kid, but realize that the ending solution is not always the right one. Dying is easy, living is the real challenge.
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| Posted: Wed Nov 02, 2011 11:32 pm Post subject: |
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| Rune174 wrote: | | I would'nt try to anymore. I tried as a kid, but realize that the ending solution is not always the right one. Dying is easy, living is the real challenge. |
but is it worth it?
I find people not worth it as careless and souless
as people are fools.
as i'm worthless because people out there make me feel like it.
and killing myself is not teaching them a lession
it showing them they're monsters.
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I feel like that alot, but just try and go out and find your own self worth. Thats why I write so often in journals and novels. It helps me be something of value in a world of my own design.
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| Rune174 wrote: | | I feel like that alot, but just try and go out and find your own self worth. Thats why I write so often in journals and novels. It helps me be something of value in a world of my own design. |
I'm just tired of everyone,
I feel everyone isn't worth it now
my trust of everything have gone
it been killed by my trust, jugdement
and people.
I only can pretend to be happy
and compress my sadness and hate
It feels like one of those "it's to late" situation
"it's broken it shattered, the one of a kind is now gone"
happiness can break and die,
few of them can be revive but a few that can't just die.
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| Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 12:28 am Post subject: |
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So just like that, you are going to give up? Come on, stand up and take control. You can do it. There is so many things to look forward to in life.
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| Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 1:13 am Post subject: |
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| Rune174 wrote: | | So just like that, you are going to give up? Come on, stand up and take control. You can do it. There is so many things to look forward to in life. |
been there done that.
beside your the only one who cares, a stranger online who cares
I find that funny.
i'm mostly dead inside now, beside i've been the road to try
and hopes things gets better... and it kept going down hill,
like waiting for dead love one to come back to life and give you
a heart warming hug... knowing it's not gonna happend.
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| I thought of doing so and tryed a couple of times durring my teen years. But i came to the reliseation that killing my self would only give every ass hole what they want. So if my continued existance would be the biggest F.U to every ass hole i had to deal with, then i will gladly deal with the slings and arrows of life in order to just say with my continued existance, "Hey ass hole, Im still here and i'm not going to even give you the sadisfaction!" |
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| Evan_Himmel wrote: | | I thought of doing so and tryed a couple of times durring my teen years. But i came to the reliseation that killing my self would only give every ass hole what they want. So if my continued existance would be the biggest F.U to every ass hole i had to deal with, then i will gladly deal with the slings and arrows of life in order to just say with my continued existance, "Hey ass hole, Im still here and i'm not going to even give you the sadisfaction!" |
what do you call, when the things you use to like and love
you start to hate them becuase it reminds you of the person that hurted you?
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I ate a dolphin...it was nasty though.
Not what i expected...
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| Pride wrote: | I ate a dolphin...it was nasty though.
Not what i expected... |
don't know if your stupid or just heartless
maybe both
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| cheesecaked wrote: | | Pride wrote: | I ate a dolphin...it was nasty though.
Not what i expected... |
don't know if your stupid or just heartless
maybe both |
Stupid for trying, but how is it heartless?
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| Artyom Derison wrote: | | No disrespect but the way you are acting on this thread could be seen as heartless since you are making jokes at a serious subject. |
I thought that the thread was for everyone...as what was your Darkest Secret...okay...i take back what i said about the fish.
And if suicide was the thread, then i consider going to a therapist. Life is hard, and some people have it harder than others, yet that is no reason to end your life, or someone else, doing so is just a point of weakness and nothing more.
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Well it's your life, waste it if you want.
I had a hard time reconciling with certain family members after I came out as an atheist to them, that was my tough patch this year.
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| Space Cats wrote: | Well it's your life, waste it if you want.
I had a hard time reconciling with certain family members after I came out as an atheist to them, that was my tough patch this year. |
lets see I lost the trust on people
I think i'm now atheist becuase I talk bad about the "imaginary friend" upstairs
I think I'm becoming a homophobe and racist
and what i once like and love like drawing, videogames, cartoons and furries i slowlt start to hate
becuase it reminds me of the person i shared with, who distroyed it all.
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| Space Cats wrote: | | Sounds like you need to get over something, rather than letting it ruin you. |
easy said then done...
I'm never gonna forget or forgive and never trust another soul again.
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I can't do it for you, it'll get better or worse and it if it's too tough then I guess you're going to get worse too.
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((...
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You done flogging the drama lama cheesecaked? Consider yourself lucky. I rarely post on emo "oh, I'm so sad" posts.
You know what. You're right. Life is hard, unfair, cold, and uncaring. It kicks you when your down, spits on you, and then punches your dog in the face while you watch. Who said Life was suppossed to be anything different? Where is it written that life has to be fair... or even equal? Ever read the Old Testiment? It's pretty harsh how... heavy-handed God is. But you know what? NEVER take a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
You're right. Life sucks. Hearts get broken. But you know what else? Vacuum's suck too. And china pretty easily breaks as well.
So what? You had you're heart broken. Join the legions of loney, heart-broken people out there. You're still posting here. And, people have posted back to you.
I'm pretty sure you're heart didn't break in one day. And, I'm also fairly certain that Rome wasn't built in a day. Therefore, I'd venture dollars to donuts that your... depression and self-loathing also didn't come about in a single day. So... it's going to take some time to recorrect, readjust, and move on. Goto a liscenced therapist, and let them help you.
Again, NEVER use a permanent solution to a temporary problem. )) |
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| cheesecaked wrote: | | Evan_Himmel wrote: | | I thought of doing so and tryed a couple of times durring my teen years. But i came to the reliseation that killing my self would only give every ass hole what they want. So if my continued existance would be the biggest F.U to every ass hole i had to deal with, then i will gladly deal with the slings and arrows of life in order to just say with my continued existance, "Hey ass hole, Im still here and i'm not going to even give you the sadisfaction!" |
what do you call, when the things you use to like and love
you start to hate them becuase it reminds you of the person that hurted you? |
Hmmmm, would you please give me more detail? Other than that, if the person in question makes you depressed so much, then look for some thing that you like that isn't related to said person. |
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OS5IkrOh32g
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| Evan_Himmel wrote: | | cheesecaked wrote: | | Evan_Himmel wrote: | | I thought of doing so and tryed a couple of times durring my teen years. But i came to the reliseation that killing my self would only give every ass hole what they want. So if my continued existance would be the biggest F.U to every ass hole i had to deal with, then i will gladly deal with the slings and arrows of life in order to just say with my continued existance, "Hey ass hole, Im still here and i'm not going to even give you the sadisfaction!" |
what do you call, when the things you use to like and love
you start to hate them becuase it reminds you of the person that hurted you? |
Hmmmm, would you please give me more detail? Other than that, if the person in question makes you depressed so much, then look for some thing that you like that isn't related to said person. |
My lover or ex, or liar and traitor and user
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| Caroline wrote: | ((...
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You done flogging the drama lama cheesecaked? Consider yourself lucky. I rarely post on emo "oh, I'm so sad" posts.
You know what. You're right. Life is hard, unfair, cold, and uncaring. It kicks you when your down, spits on you, and then punches your dog in the face while you watch. Who said Life was suppossed to be anything different? Where is it written that life has to be fair... or even equal? Ever read the Old Testiment? It's pretty harsh how... heavy-handed God is. But you know what? NEVER take a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
You're right. Life sucks. Hearts get broken. But you know what else? Vacuum's suck too. And china pretty easily breaks as well.
So what? You had you're heart broken. Join the legions of loney, heart-broken people out there. You're still posting here. And, people have posted back to you.
I'm pretty sure you're heart didn't break in one day. And, I'm also fairly certain that Rome wasn't built in a day. Therefore, I'd venture dollars to donuts that your... depression and self-loathing also didn't come about in a single day. So... it's going to take some time to recorrect, readjust, and move on. Goto a liscenced therapist, and let them help you.
Again, NEVER use a permanent solution to a temporary problem. )) |
Life isn't fair
so does that mean i should be unfair too?
it sounds like it.
find i'll be nothin i'll be unfair
i'll have no sympathy for anyone anymore...
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Ever been a relationship for 3 years and more?
you feel happy and in love, secured
in peace in mind, like you can take on the world...
later you relize you where used and it was all lie
everying that feels right and good goes down hill
like plans together being for each other
all the love and happiness that was build up together just get
stabbed and destoryed in front of you!
tell me why i shouldn't be sad or mad and loose my trust
on everything...
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| cheesecaked wrote: | | Evan_Himmel wrote: | | cheesecaked wrote: | | Evan_Himmel wrote: | | I thought of doing so and tryed a couple of times durring my teen years. But i came to the reliseation that killing my self would only give every ass hole what they want. So if my continued existance would be the biggest F.U to every ass hole i had to deal with, then i will gladly deal with the slings and arrows of life in order to just say with my continued existance, "Hey ass hole, Im still here and i'm not going to even give you the sadisfaction!" |
what do you call, when the things you use to like and love
you start to hate them becuase it reminds you of the person that hurted you? |
Hmmmm, would you please give me more detail? Other than that, if the person in question makes you depressed so much, then look for some thing that you like that isn't related to said person. |
My lover or ex, or liar and traitor and user |
Ah that does explane every thing. I have been ther before, a girl i was on a date with, faked not fealing well in order to ditch me and go out with some rich dick from Scotsdale. What you are fealing is the deprestion phase, soon you will be in the "fuck women, who needs them" stage. Every one goes through it, some just stick on to certen stages longer than others. Eny way here is a song that will help you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-38ngJDobg&feature=related |
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It feels bad to know that you feel this far down.
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I know two people who tried to kill themselves.
One I saved.
The other was rescued (happened 2 months ago, in fact).
Both where very grateful they are still alive.
I guess even if you have nothing, you still have yourself.
But Cheesecaked, there are people who are concerned for you.
I may barely know you, but I do not want to see you kill yourself.
That is all I can offer and I hope it is enough.
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